I hate my name

So my real name it is not Marilyn Maddox....I personally hate my real name it is horrible. My 1st name is Jill well Jillian....my mom tells me she just loved the name....i'va always hated it. I never felt like a Jill....I've alwaya felt more fabulous then that.....Which i believe i truely am.....haha....anyways ever since i can remember i've loved Marilyn Monroe. she is fabulous and absolutely amazing. I love the name Marilyn. So that's why i use it....Even though Marilyn Monroe actually hated it....i love it. it's beautiful.....and my last know is even worst i'm not even gonna say it.....but i like Maddox....can't remember where i got it from but i love.....and i feel like a Marilyn Maddox. I look like one too atleast i think i do... I have a lot of dreams and with my real name i'll get no where so....that why i will call myself Marilyn Maddox it sounds so much better...