to a nightmare within a nightmare

so i had this dream last night that my mom was somehow borught back to life. i dunno how or why...but in the dream she was sayinf something i could hear and my dad was fightin with me...he was happy i was pissed because she fucking left me....said if only she would have listened she would still be alive. that she was selfish....looking back it's kinda true. she got out of the hosiptal then went right back to take radiation....when her family told her not to. the result she got sicker and it ultimately lead to her dieing a week later. i dunno but i feel like shit earlier cause of it. i had forgot about the dream and then it came back it was insane. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with my brain to make me remember horrible things. i'd love to eraser something...but i guess i just have to live with it...anyways i just had to get that shit out....back to attempting to write my art history outline.

Special Victims unit

Oh how i love Law and Order SVU.....i don't care much for any of them other ones but i love this one...i dunno why tho. anyways right now they are having a ripped from the headlines marathon that i've been watching all day. All the episode are taking from real life and it's really good. i like it when the tragedy of real life inspires something and put it out there for people to be aware of.

I really need to be writing a paper. i told myself i would finish this paper, and outline and thsi thing for a scholarship. all by tuesday.....and i'm working on it. but i have a short attention spand. i just can't help it i have always had ADD and what not and i just stopped taking the crazy pills for it they just fuck u up and kill the creativity and you imagination. I just can't have that.

Ok back to SVU and my Tony Cragg paper. google him he really is a great artist!

HIM Live

Last weekend i got a chance to see my Favorite Band HIM Live and it was amazing!!!! I was so excited and electified. It took up 5 and half hours to get there, 20 mins to find a place to park, about 2 hours of waiting in line to get into Bogart's. The opening acts Drive A, and We are the Fallen, took forever doing like 6 songs a piece. But they were both great and i do recommend them..during the show tho I got smooshed, molested, hittin on ,kicked in the face by a crowd surfer and got gum stuck in my hair.

And it was all worth it to be like 6 feet from the 5 amazing finnish men that make up HIM.

And i would totally do it again in a heart beat.