guess who can update from her new phone.......haha
this girl can

fucking sweet!!!!!!!!!!

Chaos

I've been so busy lately....i haven't updated. damn....i work and just finished up the semester it has just been chaos. i will start to devote more time to the blog.

I wonder if i can do it from my awesome new at&t phone.....hum i must try it

“I get my ideas out of my dreams. if you’re lucky enough to use something you see in a dream, it is purely original. It’s not in the world — it’s in your head. I think that is amazing.” — Alexander McQueen


I get ideas the same way. they haunt my dreams. and we i don't remember my dreams they come to me in real life just by suprise. I love it!

December Andy!

so my best friend Ducky just started a blog...he is really worth checking out and i'm not just saying that he is amazingly awesome...anyways follow his blog here

http://duckydecember.blogspot.com

and his twitter @decemeberandy

XoXoX
Marilyn

update!

Wow it has been a long time since i have updated this...however i am always on here which is what is werid about it. oh well. there are 3 more weeks on this semester left and i'm excited for them to be over. I have been content with the world and excited for what is to come. Anyways i can only keep this short i have books to read and papers to attempt to start on.

"Destiny is for Losers. It's just some Stupid Excuse to wait for things to Happen instead of making them Happen."

That amazing quote came from one of my favorite Shows. Gossip Girl i'm pretty fucking addcited to it....I've been reading the books and me and Blair Waldorf who said the quotes have alot in common...it's kinda creepy but also very awesome.

Anyways i'm gonna start living by this quote and make things happen for me. I have a busy next few months ahead of me and i'm gonna do whatever it take to make it through.

XoXoX

Just one of those days

so i was up all night and went to a meeting this morning for relay for life and hung out with some friends.....it was all fun. got home took a nap. out of the fucking blue my sponsor decides to call and ask how things were....and then admitted she had forgotten about me in her sickly sweet i care fuck you ton. needless to say i was in a bad mood. got a call about some magazines and i'm realizing now it was mostly a scam so i'm gonna put a stop to it tomorrow hopefully. anyways it just been a weird day and i have felt a shift in the world of my little town. It's like i just opened my eyes or something...i dunno anyways i'm gonna go chacha my ass of....

til next time!

Life Won't Wait- By Ozzy

Ozzy never stops making amazing songs...and i love this one....perfect beat and amazing words!

Life Won't Wait

I watch it all change,
Take the news of the day
And throw it away

Time will kill all the pain,
Fate will cure the decay of all this blind ambition,
The greed brings us together

Stand strong,
Stay true,
Be brave,
It all comes down to you

Try to just let it go,
Know that just is too slow,
But it comes in the end

Rise, the guilty will fall,
Stay, they can't take it all; they want the unimportant,
It's love they leave behind

Stand up,
Aim true,
Keep heart,
The future looks to you

Every second you throw away,
Every minute of every day,
Don't get caught in a memory,
'Cause life won't wait for you,
No, life won't wait for you, my friend

I'm watching the change,
Who will carry the flame?
It all feels very strange

Dreams that men can be good,
Faith to live as we should and know we're all connected,
We give ourselves the power

Stand strong,
Stay true,
Be brave,
It all comes down to you

Every day that you wait, you're falling faster,
No slide of hand,
No twist of fate,
No ever after

When it's gone, it's gone,
I'll fight 'til the bitter end,
Life won't wait for you,
No, life won't wait for you, my friend

Life won't wait for you, my friend
Life won't wait for you, my friend
Life won't wait for you, my friend
Life won't wait for you, my friend

NXT 7

Dear NXT 7

Your apology is not accepted. You guys have worked you ass of to get to the point in you life and i respect that. An While I admire you determination and your drive. You simply can not go out and beat up people just because you do not get your way. That is not how the real life works. And even though it has worked for you this time. I must say you do not deserve it. Simply because it is not right. You guys went about all the wrong way. An i will not enjoying watching any of your matches because of the simple fact that of how you got to where you are.

Good Luck attempting to make the WWE Universe Love you

You will need it!

Sincerely,

Marilyn

Happy Birthday to Me!

I turned 22 today and i had a great little birthday just by myself....and a bottle of champagne!

This is just how i fucking feel

Lyrics to I Don't Care by Apocalyptica featuring Adam Contier from Three Days Grace

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you
I try to make it through these lies, and that's all I do

Just don't deny it,
Don't try to fight this ,and deal with it
and that's just part of it,

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause i swear (i swear),i don't care

I try to make you see my side
Always trying to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do

I'm getting buried in this place
I got no room your in my face
don't say anything just go away

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause i swear (iswear) i don't care

[ instrumental ]
love changing everything
You won't be left for me x2


If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just and and leave this all behind
Cause i swear(i swear)i don't care

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care(i don't care), I don't care(i don't care)
Just go ahead and leave this all behind
I don't care(i swaer), I don't care
At all...

Blah Blah Blah

So i am becoming a bit of a female hermit. I never leave the house unless i have somewhere i really need to go....i work all the time my job which is from home.....i have to though cause it's a great job i just have to work my ass of to make anything....But ChaCha is pretty great and i have fun doing it..anyways better work and sleep i have been working on clothes....finally got my mannequin completed i will definitely have to post a pic of it and maybe how i made it...that will be some time later tho....i just wanted to update back to ChaChaing i go....

Save 10 Things!!!!!!

To anyone who may see this....not many people thought....this amazing show got canceled and us loyal fans are trying to bring it back so sign this petition to help us do so... if not for us then do it for the Naked Mole Rats!!!!! Thanks!

Happy 84th Birthday to Marilyn Monroe

Today wouls have been h84th birthday of Marilyn Monroe....and to celebrate i'm watching some of her movies....simply because i just love them...anyways her are some fast fasts i got from http://www.marilynmonroe.com

Enjoy!

Fast Facts

Birth Name: Norma Jeane Mortenson
Also Known As: Norma Jeane Baker

Birth date: June 1, 1926
Birth place: Los Angeles, CA
Death date: August 5, 1962
Death place: Brentwood, CA
Burial location: Corridor of Memories, #24, at Westwood Memorial Park in Los Angeles, CA

Height: 5 feet 5 1/2 inches
Weight: Varied, 115 - 120 lbs.
Measurements: 37-23-36 (Studio's Claim); 35-22-35 (Dressmaker's Claim)
Hair color: Blond
Eyes: Blue

High schools: Van Nuys High School; University High School
Occupations: Model, Actress, Singer

Mother: Gladys Baker
Half-brother: Hermitt Jack Baker
Half-sister: Berniece Miracle

Marriages: Jimmy Dougherty (1942-1946); Joe DiMaggio (1954); Arthur Miller (1956-1961)
Stepchildren: Joe DiMaggio, Jr., Jane and Robert Miller

Did you know?
In 1999, Marilyn was named the Number One Sex Star of the 20th Century by Playboy magazine

In 1999, Marilyn was voted the 'Sexiest Woman of the Century' by People Magazine.

Issued on June 1, 1995, Marilyn was featured on a 32¢ US commemorative postage stamp.

Elton John recorded the song "Candle in the Wind" as a tribute to Marilyn Monroe.

In December 1953, she was the Playboy "Sweetheart" of the Month.

In February 1953, Marilyn was named the “The Most Advertised Girl in the World” by the Advertising Association of the West.

She was crowned Miss California Artichoke Queen in 1947.

In 1946, she began using the stage name Marilyn Monroe, but did not legally change her name until February 23, 1956.

Marilyn Monroe married Joe DiMaggio in San Francisco City Hall.

Marilyn Monroe was nominated for the 1956 British Academy Award for "Best Foreign Actress" in the Seven Year Itch.

Coincidence i think not

So I am a big wrestling fan....and the reason i even got into wrestling was because of this man



Owen Hart....an amazing wrestler and man. my all time favorite wrestler who sadly lost his life 11 years ago today at WWF's Over the Edge paper view. He died from injuries received from doing a stunt that he shouldn't have been doing in the 1st place.

anyways

Tonight there is a WWE pay per view....and the name of it is....Over the Limit...

hum....i find it very strange that 11 year to the day that Owen Hart lost his life at Over the Edge there is a pay pe view with a similar name debuting....hm.....i just don't think it a coincende.

Vince McMahon the great mind behind everything wrestling for the last decade and a half should know very well what today is and what happened 11 years ago.

You think he would know better than to do something like this...sadly i think not

i hate that...

That's all i'm saying about this tho....

and today i will the of the great man Owen was and not the tragic that happened.

Have you ever had a menstrual period, Mr. Thatcher?

I found this fantastic letter curiosity on someone on my facebook and had to post it here....cause it is simple genius....haha

This was passed on to me via email and, real or not, I thought it was too good not to share here …

Dear Mr. Thatcher,


I have been a loyal user of your Always maxi pads for over twenty years and I appreciate many of their features. Why, without the LeakGuard Core™ or Dri-Weave™ absorbency, I’d probably never go horseback riding or salsa dancing, and I’d certainly steer clear of running up and down the beach in tight, white shorts. But my favorite feature has to be your revolutionary Flexi-Wings. Kudos on being the only company smart enough to realize how crucial it is that maxi pads be aerodynamic. I can’t tell you how safe and secure I feel each month knowing there’s a little F-16 in my pants.
 
Have you ever had a menstrual period, Mr. Thatcher? Ever suffered from “the curse”? I’m guessing you haven’t. Well, my “time of the month” is starting right now. As I type, I can already feel hormonal forces violently surging through my body. Just a few minutes from now, my body will adjust and I’ll be transformed into what my husband likes to call “an inbred hillbilly with knife skills.” Isn’t the human body amazing?

As Brand Manager in the Feminine-hygiene Division, you’ve no doubt seen quite a bit of research on what exactly happens during your customers’ monthly visits from “Aunt Flo.” Therefore, you must know about the bloating, puffiness, and cramping we endure, and about our intense mood swings, crying jags, and out-of-control behaviour. You surely realize it’s a tough time for most women. In fact, only last week, my friend Jennifer fought the violent urge to shove her boyfriend’s testicles into a George Foreman Grill just because he told her he thought Grey’s Anatomy was written by drunken chimps. Crazy! The point is, sir, you of all people must realize that America is just crawling with homicidal maniacs in Capri pants… which brings me to the reason for my letter.
 
Last month, while in the throes of cramping so painful I wanted to reach inside my body and yank out my uterus, I opened an Always maxi-pad, and there, printed on the adhesive backing, were these words: “Have a Happy Period.”
 
Are you f__king kidding me? What I mean is, does any part of your tiny middle-manager brain really think happiness – actual smiling, laughing happiness – is possible during a menstrual period?
Did anything mentioned above sound the least bit pleasurable? Well, did it, James? FYI, unless you’re some kind of sick S&M freak girl, there will never be anything “happy” about a day in which you have to jack yourself up on Motrin and Kahlua and lock yourself in your house just so you don’t march down to the local Walgreen’s armed with a hunting rifle and a sketchy plan to end your life in a blaze of glory. For the love of God, pull your head out, man! If you just have to slap a moronic message on a maxi pad, wouldn’t it make more sense to say something that’s actually pertinent, like “Put Down the Hammer” or “Vehicular Manslaughter Is Wrong”, or are you just picking on us?

Sir, please inform your Accounting Department that, effective immediately, there will be an $8 drop in monthly profits, for I have chosen to take my maxi-pad business elsewhere. And though I will certainly miss your Flex-Wings, I will not for one minute miss your brand of condescending bullshit. And that’s a promise I will keep… Always.

Best,
Wendi A.
Austin , TX



I must say Wendi A from Austin, TX i thank you for your amazing letter. and for standing up for all homicidal menstrual bleeding maniacs!

Dream Book

So while i was watching the 2nd to last episode of 10 things i hate about you tonight i decide i wanted to create my own dream book. just like Bianca. And i'm completely in love with it. just the idea that i can have all my dreams in front of me to look at when i'm down is great....i've got a few things in it so far....but it is far from complete....i have a list of ideas for it and i'm super excited about them all....

I think everyone should create their own Dream Book....it will make your life better.....

at least i think so.....i'll let you know how it goes after a while...

I love waking up from a nitemare only to be possessed by Fashion

I woke up about 3 this morning from a nightmare where this women was chases me and someone else with a knife in my our home....i dunno why....but....i woke up and laid there trying to go back to sleep after an hour i could think i had this urge to listen to Fashion by Lady Gage....with is a great....then i had to read the vanity fair article about Alexander McQueen.....who was a truly amazing designer....anyways i start ripping designer ads out of my vanity fairs and a pic of McQueen. Took my Marilyn Monroe poster and they are all now on the ceiling above my bed and more will be added. They are there for inspiration. and to remind me that i will one day have an ad in Vanity Fair...anyways.....
Here are the Lyrics to Fashion by Lady Gaga

Fashion Lyrics

Ohhh Ohhh
La La La
We Love Designer


I am, I'm too fabu-lous
I'm so fierce that it's so nuts
I live, to be model thin
Dress me, I'm your manne-quin


J'adore Vivienne, La Vie et Moi
Gucci, Fendi, et Prada. Valentino, Armani too.
Merde I love them Jimmy Choo

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)

Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We love designer

I need, some new stile-ttos
Can't walk, down the street in those
You are, who you wear it's true
A girl's just as hot as the shoes she choose


J'adore Weitzman, La Vie et Moi
Louis, Dolce Gabbana, Alexander McQueen, eh oh.
Merde I love those Minolo

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)

Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We Love Designer

Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We Love Designer
[Fashion Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be
Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be
Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be

Ohhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We love designer

Ohhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We love designer

Classes are over

It's been 2 years since i've had a summer off and now i have one....and i'm excted i get to rest.....i'm gonna work on my art....and my new job as a ChaCha guide....got a quetion text ChaCha... it's free. so i'm excited.....i'm gonna make the most of it and get theing done around my house and try to get everything clean up.....but i'll update about that later....night now...i've been awake for 24 hours....and my Monster is finally wearing off....my contacts are out and now i'm gonna curl up and sleep....

I love summer!

Set List for HIM @ Bogart's

There is the set list for the HIM show i went to in Cincinnati.

Ok it the the basic set list..

like at valentine
right here in my arms
wings of a butterfly
heartkiller
kiss of dawn
join me
love the hardest way
wicked game
buried alive by love
disarm me (with your loneliness)
killing loneliness
katherine wheel
funeral of hearts

enc:
soul on fire
scared to death
when love and death embrace

Poison Girl comes in there some way just not fucking sure where.

just an update

So this semester of classes is almost over and i'll be able to relax and update this blog the way i want to...i have some great ideas for what i want to do with everything in my life....got a decent job....it's just takes alot of time....but i' have alto of hope for the future....that's if i can stay awake... anyways i'm gonna curl up and get some sleep...

to a nightmare within a nightmare

so i had this dream last night that my mom was somehow borught back to life. i dunno how or why...but in the dream she was sayinf something i could hear and my dad was fightin with me...he was happy i was pissed because she fucking left me....said if only she would have listened she would still be alive. that she was selfish....looking back it's kinda true. she got out of the hosiptal then went right back to take radiation....when her family told her not to. the result she got sicker and it ultimately lead to her dieing a week later. i dunno but i feel like shit earlier cause of it. i had forgot about the dream and then it came back it was insane. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with my brain to make me remember horrible things. i'd love to eraser something...but i guess i just have to live with it...anyways i just had to get that shit out....back to attempting to write my art history outline.

Special Victims unit

Oh how i love Law and Order SVU.....i don't care much for any of them other ones but i love this one...i dunno why tho. anyways right now they are having a ripped from the headlines marathon that i've been watching all day. All the episode are taking from real life and it's really good. i like it when the tragedy of real life inspires something and put it out there for people to be aware of.

I really need to be writing a paper. i told myself i would finish this paper, and outline and thsi thing for a scholarship. all by tuesday.....and i'm working on it. but i have a short attention spand. i just can't help it i have always had ADD and what not and i just stopped taking the crazy pills for it they just fuck u up and kill the creativity and you imagination. I just can't have that.

Ok back to SVU and my Tony Cragg paper. google him he really is a great artist!

HIM Live

Last weekend i got a chance to see my Favorite Band HIM Live and it was amazing!!!! I was so excited and electified. It took up 5 and half hours to get there, 20 mins to find a place to park, about 2 hours of waiting in line to get into Bogart's. The opening acts Drive A, and We are the Fallen, took forever doing like 6 songs a piece. But they were both great and i do recommend them..during the show tho I got smooshed, molested, hittin on ,kicked in the face by a crowd surfer and got gum stuck in my hair.

And it was all worth it to be like 6 feet from the 5 amazing finnish men that make up HIM.

And i would totally do it again in a heart beat.

I hate my name

So my real name it is not Marilyn Maddox....I personally hate my real name it is horrible. My 1st name is Jill well Jillian....my mom tells me she just loved the name....i'va always hated it. I never felt like a Jill....I've alwaya felt more fabulous then that.....Which i believe i truely am.....haha....anyways ever since i can remember i've loved Marilyn Monroe. she is fabulous and absolutely amazing. I love the name Marilyn. So that's why i use it....Even though Marilyn Monroe actually hated it....i love it. it's beautiful.....and my last know is even worst i'm not even gonna say it.....but i like Maddox....can't remember where i got it from but i love.....and i feel like a Marilyn Maddox. I look like one too atleast i think i do... I have a lot of dreams and with my real name i'll get no where so....that why i will call myself Marilyn Maddox it sounds so much better...

HIM

So my life kinda of sucks and i'm well aware of it...anyways there are only a few things that make me completely happy....HIM is one of those things.

They are my all time favorite band....they are amazing. Ville Valo (the lead singer) writes the most beautiful songs i've every heard. Songs that speak the words i'm too afriad to say. Songs that make me dance with happiness yet cry....laugh yet scream....they are amazing...

Anyways they are coming close to where i am live in concert andi have some money coming and i8'm going to see them.....even if it breaks me and leave me poor i'm gonna....

Cause they make me happy and keep me sane.

It will be so worth it.....even if i have to go alone.....

HIM=Love

Spring Break 10

So I've been on spring break all week....and i've done nothing but lay around, sleep, do artsy things and catch up on my shows. I've found a site that i'm absolute in love with.....

it's http://dollarstorecrafts.com/ it's a fantastic site full of cheap craft items.....i'm in love.....i live for artsy stuff....i've learned how to make German Stars and this awesome bracelet....




it's made out of a cassette tape.....it was an idea that came straight out of Finland and since i love just about anything Finnish i made one and it's awesome..mine is different then there's cause i broke it but i just revamped it....i'm gonna try again tho and see it i can make one like there...the designer who came up with this idea are amazing 2 of my new favorites.

Here's the link to how to make it.....also check out their weebsite they are pretty awesome!

http://www.hemmingwillstrom.com/unique/

I also made a set of Earrings from the wheels in the cassette.


well that is all for now...i'm going back to finish the 2nd episode of Dexter. I'm a total death hag....and i have alot of catching up to do with this serial killer

New beginnings

I have alot of dream....one of them i to start a web show called in bed with marilyn. since i'm having some trouble getting up the courage to do that i started this blog....i'll talk about whatever tickles my fancy really....A place to get everything out really....cause in this world you need an outlit